Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Here's to the Lifelines ...

I found out the other day that a friend had passed away ending a year and a half long battle with cancer. It's made me step back and reevaluate just how precious life is, and how very fragile its hold can be.

Although I hadn't known this friend very long before she was diagnosed with cancer, she had a big impact on my life. She was one of those lifelines that the Lord throws you when you're close to drowning. After the girls and I left our home that year, I was hired as a Title I aide at their school. This friend was one of the amazing group of ladies that I worked with.

As we talked, it turned out that she had been in similar circumstances to me. She was able to give me some pointers and help me determine a direction to go in getting my feet back under me. I hope that I told her how much it meant to me, but I can't really say for sure. I was just trying to hold it together and help my daughters and I survive another day.

I feel pretty lucky to have known this lady (and the other beautiful gals that I worked with!). She had such a big personality, and she lit up a room. The kids LOVED her. I'm so happy that she's not struggling anymore; she went through a lot, but my heart aches for the ones who will miss her so much. I'm so grateful for the gospel. Knowing that death is not the end is a comfort that I couldn't imagine living without.

As I've thought about the impact of this one friend on my life in such a short time, I've realized that there are an awful lot of you who have impacted me just as greatly. I just wanted to express how thankful I am for those of you who have been my lifelines in those times when I most needed one ... Your kindness has been my safe harbor.

Monday, June 27, 2011

I Have Been Remiss in My Duties

Yesterday, my oldest daughter raked me over the coals. Apparently, she's just remembered that I used to sing to them every night before bed. (Seriously, every single night until she was about seven.) She looked at me and said, while sporting a very angry face that was somehow near tears, "YOU NEVER SING TO US ANYMORE BEFORE BED!!!! How come you never sing to us anymore? You used to do it EVERY night?"

At least I made an impression. Who knew that it was that important to her? Her little sister chimed in. Needless to say, I sang to them at bedtime last night. Thank heavens that this one was an easy fix!

Funny Daughters ...

The other night, M asked me, "Mom, tomorrow will you tell us how you know when you're dying?"

Apparently, morbid fascination seems to be the theme of the week. This morning, L told me that if M dies, I need to put "Bunny" (M's favorite stuffed animal) "with her in her tomb!" (said with great zest!) This sparked a discussion between the two sisters of what they wanted to have happen if they die. M said, "We'll practice later."

Yup, that's life in my world. Never a dull moment ...

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

My Goal ...

As I was leaving my apartment today, I was flagged down by a neighbor that I don't know very well. (Read: at all) She told me that she really appreciated the testimony that I shared during the last Fast and Testimony meeting. She said that it was very powerful and affected her a lot. It was so kind of her to tell me that.

She didn't stop there though. This sweet neighbor told me that there is something about me, that every time she sees me it just stands out, that the Light of Christ just shines so strongly in me. She said that she really looks up to me and that I am such a strong woman.

I don't know that I always see those qualities in myself. I certainly have a long way to go in order to become who I want to be. The picture that she was painting though is exactly what I want to be. It is the kind of person that can see the Savior one day and hear His voice.

It gives me great hope that this sweet lady sees in me those things that I hope one day to be. It's like she has given me a glimpse of what one day perhaps I can become. Through this neighbor's eyes, I can see my goal-- what I want to be, not necessarily so that everyone else will notice, but so that my Savior will.

Monday, June 20, 2011

The Time-out Song

M(9) was in time out when she started singing, and this is what she sang:

"Crack me up! I'm an egg!"

Ha, ha, ha! :) That girl of mine makes me smile.

Friday, June 17, 2011

Songs My Babies Wrote Me Tonight

God loves you and me
from: M
to: mom

You are aloud to believe and dream all that you need he'll be
waiting there for you and he'll help you when you needd
You are one of his children like me. He loves you
do you want to know what helps me get through
God helps me. He loves me


sumday he'll come sumday he'll find you
sumday he'll come he love
-s you I love you too
When you get hert
he will helle you

helle= heal
Such a lucky mom!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

A Doozy of a Family Scripture Study -- Not for the Faint of Heart ...

While reading scriptures with the girls tonight, the verse was speaking of Mary-- the virgin. (I'm sure that many of you can already see where this is going ... ) For years, I've known that this day would come. I think that we all survived.

M & L (in unison): Mom, what's a virgin?

Me (managing valiantly not to blush-- too noticeably): You know we've talked about how it takes a mommy and a daddy to make babies? It's somebody who's never had a baby.


L: AND ME!!!

Me: That's true ...

M: So I'm a virgin!

L: Me too!

Me: You're right, but you probably shouldn't go around telling everybody that. You can talk about it at home, but it might be better if you don't mention it to other people.

M: WAIT A MINUTE! MOM-- that means that you're not a virgin.

**REALLY?!? We had to go there?**

As we finished the verses that we were reading, my sweet girls kept inserting "like me" after each occurrence of the word "virgin". It took some effort, but I did manage to react calmly without shock, horror, or embarrassment. Thankfully, I think that the next chapter refers a bit less to Mary.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Brushstrokes of Eternity

Each family prayer, each episode of family scripture study, and each family home evening is a brushstroke on the canvas of our souls. No one event may appear to be very impressive or memorable. But just as the yellow and gold and brown strokes of paint complement each other and produce an impressive masterpiece, so our consistency in doing seemingly small things can lead to significant spiritual results. “Wherefore, be not weary in well-doing, for ye are laying the foundation of a great work. And out of small things proceedeth that which is great” (D&C 64:33). Consistency is a key principle as we lay the foundation of a great work in our individual lives and as we become more diligent and concerned in our own homes.

David A. Bednar

(General Conference Address, October 2009)

Old Things Found Again ...

As I listened to the musical number at the meeting tonight, I thumbed through my scriptures. I came across some post-it notes that I had written a couple of quotes on. As I read them, I didn't realize that the topics would be brought up later by the Stake President (the leader over this group of local congregations). I did mark in my notes that I'd like to go back and study these quotes again later.

"If we think evil thoughts, our tongues will utter unclean sayings. If we speak words of wickedness, we shall end up doing works of wickedness ... on the other hand, if we are pondering in our hearts the things of righteousness, we shall become righteous. If virtue garnishes our thoughts unceasingly, our confidence shall wax strong in the presence of God and He in turn will rain down righteousness upon us ... "

Bruce R. McConkie (New Testament Institute Manual)

"To enable us to keep our minds centered on righteousness we should consciously elect to ponder the truths of salvation in our hearts. Brother Packer yesterday pleaded with eloquence that we sing the songs of Zion in order to center our thoughts on wholesome things. I would like to add that we can also-- after we have had the opening song-- call on ourselves to preach a sermon ...

If we are going to work out our salvation, we must rejoice in the Lord. We must ponder his truths in our hearts. We must rivet our attention and interests upon him and his goodness to us. ... "

Bruce R. McConkie (Conference Report, October 1978)

Some Things that I Can Do Better ...

*Will my daily acts lead me to be the kind of person who will serve in whatever manner the Lord needs?

*What do I need to do to be better aware of the needs of those around me?

*Am I taking full advantage of the opportunities I have to teach my children the gospel? Do my actions back-up what I share with my girls or do they invalidate what I say?

*Do I share my journals and blogs with my children often enough? Do I share the experiences and beliefs that have led me to where I am today? Do my children see not only my experiences, but also those of other family members, and realize that their foundation was built through years of others' choices-- for good or bad?

*Do I choose wisely both what and who I let into my life and the lives of my children? Do I stand as a lioness at the gate, protecting our home from that which would distract us from the guidance of the Holy Ghost?

Bruce R. McConkie's Witness of Jesus Christ ...

I am one of His witnesses, and in a coming day I shall feel the nail marks in His hands and in His feet and shall wet His feet with my tears.

But I shall not know any better then than I know now that He is God’s Almighty Son, that He is our Savior and Redeemer, and that salvation comes in and through His atoning blood and in no other way.

Bruce R. McConkie

(The Purifying Power of Gethsemane, reprinted in the April 2011 issue of the Liahona magazine)
Tonight, we had a meeting for the adults of several of our local church congregations. We call the collection of this meeting and the others that will follow it tomorrow Stake Conference.

This Saturday night meeting has always been one of my favorites. When I attend it, I always feel closer to my Savior. I always feel prompted about ways that I can improve who I am; when I act on these things, I find that I become more the person that the Savior wants me to be.

I'm trying harder to act on the promptings that I receive. It's easy to forget, or be rather sporadic in applying them, but I want to be better. After all, why ask for help to become what I believe if I'm not going to take advantage of the help that comes?

Over the next few posts, I will share some of the things the speakers at this meeting shared that touched my heart.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Introducing Me ...(A Re-post from my Other Blog)

Isn't there a Jonas Brothers' song by that name? (Can you tell I have a couple of girls? But wait! I am getting far ahead of myself....)

(Fabulous! Now I have that dratted Jonas Brothers' song stuck in my head.....)

Hi.... I'm Jaymie.

I'm a mom. God sent me two little angels who occasionally dent their halos. They've misplaced their wings, but they still make my heart soar. My most important job in this life will likely be that of being their mother. I try to do a good job.....

I'm a person of faith. I love my Savior and I try to be the kind of person He would like me to be, not because I have to, but because that is where I find my joy. I try to treat people as I would like to be treated. Sometimes, I succeed. At other times, I fail miserably in an embarrassing, belly-flop kind of way. So if you've been one of those belly-flops, I'm sorry. Just know that it likely was very unintentional.

I'm a student. I am working on getting my degree in English Education... It's going to be a long haul, but it's a journey that, for the most part, I am truly enjoying....

My job is to change kids lives.... No kidding! I get to work with struggling readers and help them learn the tools that they will need to succeed. Who knows if I'll succeed? Odds are that even if I do, they won't remember it. Hopefully though, the time they spend with me will be a safe place where they can feel cared for and successful, even when they struggle. I truly LOVE my job. Another plus is that I work when my kids are in school and get to be home with them when they aren't.

I've been through some interesting times, but then who hasn't? I'm grateful for the experiences that I've had. They've shaped me into who I am today, and for the most part, I like who I've grown into.

I'm pretty talky. I've tried... it's just not in my nature to shut up. Because of this, I tend to have more public embarrassing moments. (My tongue sometimes runs away with my brain and holds it hostage in some dark hole....) I don't usually say hurtful things, just DUMB things. I've found that the people who count seem to just laugh and love me anyway.

I think that pretty much covers what makes me tick.....

Missing Teeth ....

Last night, L lost her first top tooth. Smack dab in the middle of the front of her mouth is a big gaping hole. I was thrilled. I love how s's turn to eth-eth when kids have a front tooth missing. As tends to be the case, when one is truly anticipating something with glee, one is almost as certainly doomed to disappointment.

The tooth came out, and it took L exactly one try to figure out how to say her s's correctly again. AW, NUTS!!!!

When M lost the same tooth, it took her a week. For that entire week, she walked around with her finger stuck in the hole so that her s's sounded right. It was too funny.