Saturday, September 24, 2011

Willing to be Open to the Lord's Plan

Sometimes, I find myself in a beautiful place called, "My Comfort Zone". It's my happy place; things are warm and fuzzy, and I feel very little need to change anything. Unfortunately, I've found that the Lord doesn't necessarily see that beautiful place the same way that I do. To Him, it seems to be more like a quaint bed and breakfast; you go, you rest up, and then you walk away.

Lately, I've become very comfortable with where I'm at. Overall, I like where I'm at in life. Things have been running along in their organized, breakneck pattern, and I love it. I like the dynamics of my little family. I've been very happy with how my schooling is progressing. I've got good friends and family and lots of opportunities to serve. My plate is pretty full, and my cup has been running over. Apparently, I've become just a bit too settled ...

All of a sudden, I seem to have hit a dusty, washboard road in my plan. After many hours trying to decide if somehow my plan prompted me to take a wrong turn in the Lord's plan for me, I've come to some conclusions:

* I really was a bit too content.

* Having a bit of a forced easing in my school workload might actually be a good thing for me, even if it means extending my planned timeline just a bit. (They no longer begin the teaching program that I need in the spring at the distance campuses. It's just as well that I didn't write this post that week. Let's just say, "Not happy ... NOT happy ..." I got used to it. Things are better ... )

* While I don't think that there are currently a lot of things that I need to change in my plan, I've had the distinct impression that He wants me to be willing to make any pertinent changes that may come along.

* More importantly, He wants me to be willing to embrace both those changes and the possibility of them.

* I needed an attitude adjustment ... I'm not all the way there yet, but I'm trying.


Sunday, September 18, 2011

Heavenly Reminders Come Unexpectedly ...

The past few weeks, we've missed more church than we've actually attended. Having been pretty healthy the last couple of years, we seem to be making up for it now with great enthusiasm. (Thankfully, it's been small stuff that lasts only a day or two-- for the most part.) I've not mentioned it to my children, but I've been a bit worried that it would be easy for the kids to slip out of the habit of attending church and into a habit of wanting to stay home on Sundays. Last night, those fears were swept aside by my El.

As she said her bedtime prayers, this is what I heard:

L (7): Thank you that tomorrow is Sunday, and that we have church; especially since we have missed so much church lately since we've been sick and we can finally go again. And PLEASE bless us that nothing will happen tonight that makes any of us sick so that we can't go tomorrow.

Kind neighbors informed us today at church that our garden plot (the one I thought was DEAD) is still alive and that I have some pumpkins and "stuff". On our way home, we drove by. My vision was that we'd pick the three or four tennis ball sized pumpkins that had managed to escape the deer and my purposeful neglect. The girls and I were all surprised to see that among the weeds which were nearly as tall as we are and the forty feet of pricker plants there was a plethora of really beautiful produce.

As she looked at the grape tomatoes on one of our plants, my Em (9) looked at me with joy shining from her face. She said, "Oh, Mom! I can't believe all of this. God has blessed us!!"

Lately it seems like I've struggled at times with remembering to be grateful-- or rather, with being as grateful as I should be and remembering to express it. It seems that Heavenly Father sent these girls to me to help remind me in times when I'm slower to turn to Him. How grateful I am for them ...

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Dances, Dishes, and Dreams ...

As I've thought about my blogs, I've decided that I'd like this blog to become more specific. While I believe that every detail in my life leads me either closer to or further away from who I believe in being, I want this to be more focused on my spiritual beliefs and the aspects of my life that relate to that most closely. Because of this, I have started another blog for everyday life stuff. It's called Dances, Dishes, and Dreams. If you're in the blogging neighborhood, I'd love to have you stop on by. :) See you soon!


Saturday, September 10, 2011

Patience

Still something I don't have in abundance ...

At church a few weeks back, a lady shared a definition of patience that I loved.

"It is the capacity to endure trouble, opposition or suffering without becoming angry, frustrated or anxious. It is the ability to do God's will and accept His timing. When you are patient, you hold up under pressure and are able to face adversity calmly and hopefully."

Yup ... this needs to be my goal. I'm thinking 3x5 cards-- one in the car, one in the bathroom, one in the kitchen, one on my desk, one by my bed ... You get the point. It's a long process.